maybe i should just give up before i fail again. i passed my maths quiz again which is great cos i got 10/20 as compared to the last one which was 15/24. i dont even know why i even bother mugging cos seriously, i think im hopeless. im obviously not going to make it to next year and even if the big shots are kind enough to allow me to promote, whatthefk am i gna take next year? i have no idea what i wna be or, to be precise, what i CAN be. yeah get your facts straight people, the smart ass who scored 262 for psle four years ago is no more. stop telling me since i was from 1/2A i must be freaking smart and all i need to do is work hard. define 'hard' before telling me tht shit. fk i feel so depressed. i really am trying to mug and i really wna do well for history cos i know this term's topic is not tht hard. got my java war qn back tday, scored a mere 7/12. i stared at it and all tht was going through my mind was DAMN IT. hah! i cant even get 70% for something thts not even counted. maybe i should cut and forget about my life for awhile.

i cant give up now, i have wayyyyyy too much to lose.
spice trade, VOC, cultivation policy, liberal policy, ethical policy, diponegoro, nationalism.