i started cutting again. i missed the pain and the way my cuts sting when my tears fall on them. i dont feel like fighting any longer. why has my life turned out like tht? did i really become stupid after psle? did i cheat in psle? why else would i end up being some pathetic fool no school wants to accept? i feel like laughing and screaming and i dont know wht to do. my parents dont believe me when i say i tried my best. they need something in black and white to support my words. i dont have tht. i want to fall asleep and never wake up. i want to walk off a building. i want to rewind my life and start over. i wanted so much to say i told you so to my parents when rv failed me. now all i can think about is how bleak my future is without a proper cert. maybe this is God's way of telling me my journey has ended.