appleeepieee

i seriously want to die

2009-01-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

i fking hate my life and i totally want to leave this fked up school but its obviously not going to happen anytime soon so i shall jump off a building. yeah. im gna do it sooner or later with all the pointless arguing and fighting that goes on everyday. i want to stop thinking about all the crap and just die. and i got c5 for hcl. but its not going to be of use so i might as well burn the damned piece of paper. i wish i could give it to dar to save her from h1 chinese. we hate rv and i wish that fartface would just die of fatness and ugliness. she's like an overdose of both.

i love fac

2008-12-28T21:41:00.005+08:00

i have no life. my mom practically drags me out of bed to go shopping with her. i had two manicures in 5days. how cool is tht mwaha. :D I QUIT MY JOB ALREADY! which means i can do tons of time-wasting stuff like trying to lose weight. anyway, i watched 3movies in a go the other day with my cousin. i think british accents are way cool. <3!ANGUS,THONGS&PERFECT SNOGGING! twilight was disappointing cos robert pattinson is not hot enough to be edward cullen. cant rmb the third movie, think it was red cliff or something. fell asleep cos my caffeine high wore off.

i suffer from insomia

2008-11-30T02:03:00.004+08:00

i can't freaking sleep, in case you don't know wht insomia means. i'm hungry and there's nothing to eat, which sucks cos i'm having gastric pains. i finished watching 终极一班 tday and it rocks! specially my future husband 辰亦儒/亚瑟王. i'm trying to figure out the notes for 保护色, but it's kinda hard when i think about 丁小雨 writing it for tht fugly 安琪. i wouldn't mind so much if 大东 and 小雨 liked her cos she was pretty. OMFG did all the pretty girls in taiwan die or wht, why was she cast?! her with the vocal cords of a six year old (whiny and immature) and a lopsided face (her left jaw portrudes). i feel like being a total bitch to people i don't like, why should i be polite to people of little importance? anyway, age has nothing to do with maturity, it only gives you wrinkles and heart attacks.

i want to stop fighting.

2008-10-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

i started cutting again. i missed the pain and the way my cuts sting when my tears fall on them. i dont feel like fighting any longer. why has my life turned out like tht? did i really become stupid after psle? did i cheat in psle? why else would i end up being some pathetic fool no school wants to accept? i feel like laughing and screaming and i dont know wht to do. my parents dont believe me when i say i tried my best. they need something in black and white to support my words. i dont have tht. i want to fall asleep and never wake up. i want to walk off a building. i want to rewind my life and start over. i wanted so much to say i told you so to my parents when rv failed me. now all i can think about is how bleak my future is without a proper cert. maybe this is God's way of telling me my journey has ended.

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2008-10-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

goodbye. i'll miss you.

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2008-10-17T21:59:00.003+08:00

i realised that the last thing i need to do before i die is to write a will. the second last thing would be to lose weight. how the hell can anyone stop eating in this country?! i had unhealthy food for dinner throughout my entire EOYs cos i was so fking stressed out and ~~my period came on wed aint tht great nope it isnt cos i didnt realise tht it came til i got home.~~ oh hell thts gross. i ate black carrot cake and charkwayteow and pizza and lassagna and tons of dark chocolate for the past two weeks. imagine my weight now. caffeine makes me gain weight too. i feel like putting myself on a diet which consists strictly of water and celery. i shall live like a rabbit. celery is the only food you lose weight while eating cos you burn more calories chewing it than it actually has. mwaha. my goal is to be 172cm and 52kg. i need to gain 2cm and lose 1.5kg. i can do it. anybody has good advice to aid me in my weight loss campaign? :P

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2008-10-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

im freeeeeeeee! watched burn after reading with lilin tday and the only reason anyone should watch it or would watch it would be the cast. brad pitt was a himbo, george clooney was a horny bastard, hilary swinton was red-haired for fk's sake. nc16 my ass, it was only given that rating cos if they had to censor it, the whole movie would be one long beep, every other word was fk. anyway i bought starbursts again and we went around trying on accessories and i chose nice dresses for lilin to try. :D no pics but just think hot legs! LOL i want the sherlock holmes hat at forever21! lilin looks better in it though. im having sorethroat, oh and maths is totally screwed. even if i did manage to pass paper2, paper1 was a complete goner. i hope lang arts didnt fk up again. if i barely pass this paper, i swear i'll kill myself. im sick of my fking results. i worry incessantly about the next day's paper tht i get up at 2am to study. im addicted to starbucks, had it on saturday, sunday, monday, and tuesday. been grouchy for the past few days cos i couldnt get any. rahhhs i want my iced white chocolate mocha!

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2008-10-13T19:45:00.001+08:00

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes
She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together,
I know you deserve much better
But remember the time
I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

i dont think i did very well for history but im usually wrong cos i always end up failing. i got super noob specs tht are plastic, shiny, black and total geekness. im being random, drank tons of coffee tday so im having caffeine rush. went mugging at yewtee mac with lynette just now and im fking sick of matrices. i saw linus LOL. i keep listening to tht song. and hansel you go die lah you. rahhhhs. i shall play piano now. i wna eat subwayyyyy. my bro bought cookies for me mwaha. XD peanut butter cookie! <3!

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2008-10-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

the last thing i need is to fight with you so can you just back off please? im sick of you flaring up at me whenever you have to leave. its not exactly me who needs to leave alright. do you think i like having a long-distance relationship with someone i see approx. 10 times a year? the only reason we're both in this is cause i doubt i can break it off. its so hard sometimes cos you always think about how soon you need to leave and that puts you in a bad mood and i dont even get to say bye. maybe you should stop focusing on how much i appear not to care. does it do anyone any good when i have moodswings too? i care and although i dont show it, you ought to feel it. im so sick of crying and getting swollen eyes and you ignoring me for weeks cos you're pissed i didnt ask you to stay. i did ask, once. but its obvious that you cant.

i love you. but sometimes i get tired of it. maybe our time is up.

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2008-10-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

i can play jay chou's new album mwaha. actually in a depressed mood but i think i'll pretend to be cheerful. im pro at putting on facades as anyone who knows me would know. and seriously i dont get why i even bother to put on my mask but hey! im entertaining. not. have been mugging like shit all week i swear i did. but not effective cos i totally flunked maths. mwaha. im so happy. okay crap i dont feel like blogging but some people get high when they read my oh-so-interesting posts so i guess im gna be nice and all. and i blogged.
ILOVE達芬奇的畫布. i shall learn it by tnight. i can play 女兒紅 but betaunknown is still the best. YES ZHIAN I THINK I JUST PROPOSED. blah farewell.

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2008-10-01T14:41:00.003+08:00

im so fickle. i keep changing songs to play by ear and im not even halfway through any of them. i can play crush but it sounds weird, i can play the intro of angel and most of love story but they're very simple, couldnt be bothered to try out the exact chords LOL. thts how damn lazy i am. 一天一天 by big bang is easy til they actually start singing cos they drown out the piano gahs. >:/ i can play it's over by jesse mccartney! mwaha. :D

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2008-09-27T19:23:00.001+08:00

i want to die. im in pain. i have eye bags from too little sleep. im dehydrated cos i cant swallow without crying. i have costochondritis.

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2008-09-26T00:27:00.004+08:00

im having ribcage inflamation. how did my ribcage get inflamed anyw? whatthefk it hurts like hell im on painkillers alr but its not working. went to another clinic just now so the doctor was quite alright LOL. had to do an ecg to check if my heart rate was normal, blood pressure was low again, 90/60. the doctor asked me if i felt faint or anything, and i gave him the 'shutthefkup' look cos i was in pain.
came home and started crying cos i had to swallow the painkillers which were obviously tablets and it hurts okay. lunched with my dars at subway and i stopped eating cos it was torture trying to swallow. im so bored now i cant sleep thanks to the painkillers which arent working. i have valium but i dont wna take it unless i have to. im killing my liver at this rate with all my pills and crap.

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story - baby just say yes.
Romeo save me, they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's so real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say yes."

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2008-09-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

i shall not be blogging for a period of time cos eoys start next friday. so far the only subject im confident of not failing is maths. the irony of it. okay so this retard wants me to list my top 10 favourite songs. here goes. like you can tell wht sort of person i am through this test.

#1 - Hero/Heroine//Boys Like Girls
#2 - Told You So//Jesse McCartney
#3 - Crush//David Archuleta
#4 - Tongue Tied//Faber Drive
#5 - Sweet&Low//Augustana
#6 - Angel//Natasha Bedingfield
#7 - One Step At A Time//Jordin Sparks
#8 - It's Over//Jesse McCartney
#9 - Heaven//The Morning Zoo Ver.
#10 - Better In Time//Leona Lewis

go ahead and tell me who im in love with smartass. :D:D:D
nvm i can help answer tht. ILOVEJESSEMCCARTNEY. he's so hot LOL. :D

okay well anyway im using my brother's laptop cos mine has some virus shit but whatthefk i can live without it. i've been going to yewtee mac quite often to study LOL. with my darling thiong and sometimes kenneth and my ex-friend. but kenneth is childish and likes to suan me all the time so i dont like him much as a study pal. went to bishan tday with thiong cos she had tuition and i sat at mac (AGAIN) reading the super ahma book. its kinda nice but we're having a test tmr. hell im gna get full marks or i shall kill myself rahhhhs. met alastair and read his erotica which was mostly sex but i was super amused by his hairy legs mwaha. :P i forgot to go for my check-up ytd and sgh sms-ed my mom to reschedule. zzz i wonder hows my blood test LOL. i shall download more songs now. (:

HIATUS TIL 17TH OCTOBER 2008. WISH ME LUCK!

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2008-09-16T22:21:00.002+08:00

whts the normal range for blood pressure? i went to see a doctor ytd cos of my persistent chest pains and he was super hilarious. our conversation was something like this.
him: hello whts wrong with you tday?
me: uh im having chest pains?
him: chest pains?! you look too young to be having heart problems.
me: =.="
him: you're very pale though, let me take your blood pressure.
me: okay. uh tht hurts i think the cuff is too tight. (okay fine im a noob i didnt know it was supposed to hurt blehhhh.)
him: oh dear your blood pressure is very low you know. tsktsk.
me: huh it is? whts the normal range?
him: yours is only 100/60. you better be careful its very low you know.
me: yeah i know. whts the normal range anyw??
him: no no you must trust me, your blood pressure is really very low.
me: =.="

hilarious lawl. so i didnt go to sch ytd and neither did dar. apparently we conveniently ponned cid, or so ms ong thinks. hello have you heard of stress?! gahs. >:/

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2008-09-14T16:13:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/appleeepieee

i created a youtube account and im a musician. :D:D:D my first video is TONGUE TIED by my current favourite band Faber Drive. OKAY FINE MY PLAYING SUCKS. but i was bored and the song was playing in my head so yeah i played-by-ear. gahs this is retarded.

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2008-09-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

this is a post full of self-pity. i have been feeling nauseous for the whole day. woke up at 2AM to get something sour to eat cos vomit kept moving up my throat. sat on the floor by the bed for nearly an hour thinking about how sucky my life turned out to be. i cramped the entire ytd away without whining at all. im having chest pains now and my lungs feel constricted.

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2008-09-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

my life in a sentence. my mom hates me, my school wants to kick me out, i failed chem, my piano needs tuning, i lost myself somewhere along the line. go figure.
and i really need to close one chapter in my life thts been left unwritten for way too long. its time for the ending. so, here goes. i miss myself too. sad huh? and you dont need me to forgive you cos we were friends. you didnt screw up my life, dont think too highly of yourself. being sorry is all fine and dandy, but i dont take apologies from my friends. and i dont care about it anymore cos its over.

im addicted to Told You So by Jesse McCartney. :D:D:D

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2008-09-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

i shall stop stressing about my crap results. im gna flame people tday. thts wht cramping girls do when they're in bad moods. bite me or fk off.
firstly the teachers and especially the principal of my fking school. i bet i'll be one of the first few to be called to meet the egg again and my parents are supposed to come along too. well guess wht? i have decided not to go. either knock me unconscious and drag me by my ankles or leave me the fk alone. do they actually think by telling me how damned lousy i did would provoke me or motivate me into proving them wrong? tht might have worked when i know i deserved my crappy results but now, hey i did study y'know, surprising as tht may sound. seriously you assholes, dont judge us by our results. it doesnt prove anything. the most notorious criminals in the world were smart people, look how they turned out. being stupid isnt a crime and my dear discipline mistress, please dont look down on neighbourhood schools. some rvians arent exactly my idea of a top school's students.
secondly the students in the lower sec. which part of 'do not cut my queue' do you not understand? the next time anyone cuts my queue i swear, seriously, tht i'll buy a cup of milo and pour it down the rude person's neck. their excuses are pathetic. so wht if sec4s do it all the time? they dont do it to me which is all i ask. you better not cut my queue or you're gna end up like beethoven. deaf and BROWNTHECOLOUROFSHIT.
lastly, WHOTHEHELL IS AKIRA? your name sounds like the vcd player. the very very old and lousy kind. yeah im insulting you not happy thn go spam my tagboard calling me a bitch and vulgar/rude/impolite, whtever you can think of. i've been called all and more so go right ahead. you're just wasting your time if you think i care.

now its time for self-pity. im having my damned PERIOD i dont care if im grossing you out stop reading if you're so pure and innocent.

ningyi, TINGG! yeeshuang, hui en, xiangyun, zhixiang, me.
we're in detention and yes i am wearing specs like a toot mugger.

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2008-09-07T22:17:00.002+08:00

i have no idea why this hurts so fucking much but its gotta stop. we cant go on like this forever.

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2008-09-07T16:34:00.005+08:00

does it make you happy when im royally pissed? ugh. my mom has done nothing but annoy me since she got in last night. her fking flight landed at 2148 on the dot but we only reached home at 0022. she was too fking busy shopping to collect her damned luggage and it almost got her fined. plus she was in china for a week and simply could not find a spare moment to buy me anything. hell im pissed. and my dad got me a new laptop though i doubt i'll see much of it. i dont even see my current one tht often. only sherry and tingg has even laid eyes on it and im not joking. seriously. im gna forget howthehell it looks like in about two days so yeah. its mine alright. yay.

but it really is pretty. gahs! okay enough harping on the minute details of my boring everyday life. ILOVEMYJUNIORS! not really but im very glad they won even though the ambulance team was a shoo-in. but the other team was cute okay! haha hophophop! :D girls im proud of y'all. results not attitude. watch it dont get all smug. thank your lucky stars bb didnt join this year. and i think tht the bloody retards who organised and wrote the emcee script deserve a good kick in the butt. i say butt cos im assuming they have no balls.

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2008-09-05T23:46:00.001+08:00

WED:
#1
figured out how to play byebye.
#2
vertically-challenged upstairs guy passed me sherry's ruler.
#3
watched death race at midnight.

THURS:
#1
pigged with kenneth at kfc.
#2
sherry came over.
#3
watched the hottie and the nottie online.

TDAY:
#1
sneezing fit and ponned chem lecture.
#2
went lilin's hse for cid.
#3
watched ghost whisperer and house.

why am i blogging in point form? oh right im lazy. :D and crap sherry's damned contacts were added to my msn after she signed out from my laptop. oh and i saw the sicko from last friday just now on the way home from dar's hse. i was at lot1 for sushi at 9PM and he walked past me. thn he said 'nice legs'. i replied 'fk you', and he said 'gladly'. im traumatised. yay. D:

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2008-09-02T21:04:00.001+08:00

tingg came over tday to 'mug'. i was being my usual hardworking self, y'know, digging out my ancient maths and history notes to prepare for eoys. NOT. =.= okay technically we were supposed to go to je lib to mug but i woke up only when tingg smsed me. wait let me rephrase tht. i woke up when my alarm rang at 8AM. but i switched it off and went back to sleep. yeah. :D im a pig. those who agree, raise your hand and say, 'AYE'. like you dare to. so i went online and started to run around aimlessly looking for something to do while Alt+F4-ing all the fking pop-ups. and tingg arrived! :D my darrrrrrlingggggg! okay fine thts ewww gag. she was productive. i think. i wasnt at all. had mac for lunch and the half a slice of cheese pissed us off. not really but it sounds more interesting like tht. :D thn wht did we do? /sticks pondering expression on forehead/ oh we watched prom night online! the thriller genre one not the bimbo bitchy one thankyouverymuch. and it was still early so we watched camp rock. its kinda like high school musical, without the cafeteria. yeah so heres a random pic. oh wait i didnt take any pics tday. SORRY! :P
oh and im worried tht the person, whose parents' english is limited to 'Hello' thus naming their offspring 'Hello', wont see this so i'll put it here too. im a very considerate person. :D its actually on my 20facts post btw.

EDIT
moron theres something called a typo. plus the letter 'i' is next to the letter 'o' on the keyboard y'know. and its my blog so fk off. put your fking name next time. oh but i guess you're too scared. i know im scary.
if you're a guy. YOU HAVE NO BALLS.
if you're a girl. GET SOME BALLS.

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2008-08-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

my mom went to china! :D yay im free from her nagging and shitty attitude. love my current state of freedom. well im bored if anything so someone with nothing better to do dared me to tell him the threeeee words. ILOVEYOU. well words are less than or equal to actions thus i said it and rolled my big brown eyes til my contacts fell out. what an anti-climax. the supposed awkwardness after i said it was ruined by me screaming 'IM BLIND IM BLIND! WHERETHEFK IS MY LENS?!?' zzz and tht was the end of our game.

heres pics from the sandcastle building thingy on saturday. im sunburnt.

oh and CO concert was great. i think. cos i suspect i fell asleep nearing the end. but whatever i heard before i slept was great! :D yvonne huangyao peixian aixin tongjing y'all looked super classy with the make-up and heels! and madeleine jieen peishi y'all looked damn hot! xD

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2008-08-27T21:38:00.003+08:00

im in a bad mood. suicidal mood. ugh. i failed chem dammit this is so screwed i hate my life i hate my results for making me so depressed. i wna transfer i wna leave this stupid stupid fked up school.

noobshit. yay thts me. i think the talk about how different our lives are compared to those who eat once every three days, unlike us, three meals every single day. no wonder im fat. i wna die.

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2008-08-26T22:06:00.001+08:00

im not creative at all at all zzz. all my blogposts have the same fking title. but seriously lah. it looks prettier when on my dashboard. look i'll prove it.

its so damned cheerful. totally not me. eh i just realised something. i like kicking people to hear them say 'owww tht hurts leh!' or something like tht. whatevs im kinda bored and not in the proper blogging mood. farewell. :D

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2008-08-25T19:23:00.001+08:00

my dear #1, wht makes you think i read your blog? okay fine i do read your blog but thts not the point. the point is, erm i forgot. but there was a point, i shall remember it soon. :D i hope. ah crap sherry has spread her sotong-ness to me shitshitshit! nevermind tht was random and fking bimbotic.

tagged by my DARRR to post 20facts about ME.
Time started: 7:12PM
#1 - i lost this fking expensive ring i bought last week. dammit.
#2 - i just slammed the piano shut. on my damned fingers. owww.
#3 - i've broken 4pairs of spectacles this year, none of which belong to me. yay.
#4 - im easily annoyed.
#5 - im easily depressed.
#6 - i want an atm card. but my mom took my bankbook. shit.
#7 - do i sound pissed? i think i sound pissed.
#8 - i tend to screech when im pissed.
#9 - im gifted. really.
#10 - i did the first 3pages of the statistics notes alr.
#11 - i think i have depression.
#12 - i cant connect the dots as quickly as i could when i was younger.
#13 - im damn freaking hungry.
#14 - wherethefk is my dad?! wherethefk is my dinner?!
#15 - i hearts RVSJAB Year4'O8! :D
#16 - i like spending money. the more the better. as long as im not the one paying.
#17 - i cant think of anything else tht is a fact. a fact per year i've been alive is enough for me.
#18 - im very very tall. 170cm is very very tall. shut your fathead if you're taller.
#19 - i used to have 5piercings. but one closed. do the maths moron.
#20 - i finally passed maths. AND I GOT A FKING B!

Time ended: 7:20PM
8minutes equals 8people.
!. Joshua
@. Hansel
#. Cherie
$. Yvonne
%. Pei Shi
^. Madeleine
&. Jia Jun
*. Keith

i typed the symbols in purpose. i aint as retarded as you.

EDIT
moron theres something called a typo. plus the letter 'i' is next to the letter 'o' on the keyboard y'know. and its my blog so fk off. put your fking name next time. oh but i guess you're too scared. i know im scary.
if you're a guy. YOU HAVE NO BALLS.
if you're a girl. GET SOME BALLS.

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2008-08-21T21:10:00.002+08:00

i learnt two new songs tday! :D thanks to tutorials. zzzomg i didnt realise tht youtube had such things im super laaaaaaaag. :P but anyway i think love song gets irritating after awhile cos the notes are repetitve and i kinda have a headache from the repeated staccato notes. better in time still rocks. i love it. :D its seriously very very nice and im still addicted to it. too bad sweet and low doesnt have a tutorial yet. ): its such a niceeee song!
oh watched LOVE GURU ytd at vivo and omfg its damn sick! o.O like the 'cantface' and 'unclejackoffanelephant'. okay no spoilers im sorry, and its nc16 but my blog is pg. i think. it doesnt contain tht many expletives alr. :D im ladylike in front of strangers you moron, d'you actually think i'll run around screaming your fking name? zzz.

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2008-08-20T20:27:00.001+08:00

if anyone finds this post ironic, please feel free to slap me. you'll be extremely appreciated. (: personally, i find wht im about to type so ironic i still cant believe it. i actually miss talking to you. after all the shit i endured and accusations thrown at me, plus your betrayal mind you, i dont know why i cant bring myself to tell you the truth. you're feeling guilty, oh right, OVER WHAT EXACTLY? do me a favour alright? dont torment yourself. she's not worth it.
dar i think i need a hug. ):

我无法帮你预言
委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍
朋友爱的那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错
至少要喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手
想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走
吹吹冷风会清醒的多
你说你不怕分手
只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过

分手快乐祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容

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2008-08-19T20:05:00.001+08:00

zzz whts wrong with me im not supposed to feel like tht ugh tmr's the last paper! D: cheer up girl cheer up! T.T i think i flunked maths. i totally panicked for partial fractions and i knew my answer was wrong but i had no more time to try it out all over again so i just left it alone and i bet the unlucky teacher who got my script would feel like throttling me for the awful handwriting and rubbish solutions. i thought matrices was fine? but apparently i did it wrongly like surprise! D: i wna cry alr omg my life is so screwed up. permutation&combination was the only topic im confident of getting all the marks for. cos thiong saved me in the morning. her dad drove me to school tday. (: tyvm thiong me loves you! binomial was like i any old how one. but i got the same answers as shixiao and sherry and aixin so it should be fine. i hope. *cross fingers* kinematics was total utter bullshit. i crapped my way through and i dont expect any marks at all. integration i hate you, tht freaking one question cost me 10marks alr! T.T

why am i ranting about this? oh right my sms got dao-ed the whole day, I WANT SOMEBODY TO CHAT WITH UGH. or i'll seriously end up slitting my wrist i swear. dammit.

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2008-08-19T07:24:00.002+08:00

quick post, im leaving for sch soon having my maths paper tday. D: i shall strive for at least a pass. well anyway kenneth if you see this my friendster got hacked! D: but who cares i dont care zzz. so i cant log in or anything so crap. nvm thts not important. aiya i have nothing to say byebye.

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2008-08-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

sherry bluetoothed me this song last week. kitty came over to 'mug' just now but we ended up talking about crap stuff so didnt do much. well history's screwed as expected, lang arts may have hope but summary was absolute rubbish, rushed it in 3minutes. ss was tday and i thought i did quite well but apparently part c was supposed to be irony. and i totally answered it from a political point of view. shall flunk everything as usual. suddenly kept replaying this song cos it got shuffled in my handphone and i realised tht it was quite nice. now im addicted. (: i wna learn this on piano. hotmail is a bastard. i cant open my inbox.
i like the tune for this part.
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

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2008-08-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

i want somebody to chat with via sms. ANYBODY. my fingers itch and i have plenty of free smses, regular chatters all having prelims. D:

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2008-08-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

maybe i should just give up before i fail again. i passed my maths quiz again which is ~~great~~ cos i got 10/20 as compared to the last one which was 15/24. i dont even know why i even bother mugging cos seriously, i think im hopeless. im obviously not going to make it to next year and even if the big shots are kind enough to allow me to promote, whatthefk am i gna take next year? i have no idea what i wna be or, to be precise, what i CAN be. yeah get your facts straight people, the smart ass who scored 262 for psle four years ago is no more. stop telling me since i was from 1/2A i must be freaking smart and all i need to do is work hard. define 'hard' before telling me tht shit. fk i feel so depressed. i really am trying to mug and i really wna do well for history cos i know this term's topic is not tht hard. got my java war qn back tday, scored a mere 7/12. i stared at it and all tht was going through my mind was DAMN IT. hah! i cant even get 70% for something thts not even counted. maybe i should cut and forget about my life for awhile.

i cant give up now, i have wayyyyyy too much to lose.
spice trade, VOC, cultivation policy, liberal policy, ethical policy, diponegoro, nationalism.

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2008-08-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

im learning tht now. its from secret! :D its the super super sad song he plays at graduation for xiaoyu thn she runs away and he chases after her and i see HEARTS! lawl i shall go practise farewell.

stuff from the body shop can cause bankruptcy. thank god my mom paid for the stuff. :D

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2008-08-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

i was productive tday for a change! :D went to woodlands library to mug with thiong who got there at like 9plus AM to 'chope' seats for us. :P i only reached there around 11AM cos i was delayed by M. shall not mention tht person here, will only serve to piss me off and rant incoherently about how much i wish i were a test-tube baby. >:[ i completed my damned energy changes assignment and made notes for SS and did some maths. shall random abit. yay! the prokia is playing the piano on msn! :D so happy its damn nice can! *applause*

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2008-08-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED SINGAPORE! :D
i dno why i feel so patriotic this year. maybe its cos i finally see how far we've come. fishing village to metropolis, in barely a century. i love my country! ❤ i was watching NDP on channel5 just now and i seriously felt like slapping the guy who was commenting on how student uniform groups arent familiar with malay commands. like shut your fking mouth asshole, you're the sissy boy who didnt go for ns i bet. i know more commands than you do fingers. shall totally kick your ass someday. >:[
oh and i think its ironic tht the father has to stand to welcome his son. =.= zzz ignore me.

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2008-08-08T17:56:00.006+08:00

zzz i wna strangle CHOPPER!. whtthehell is wrong with you?! >:[ are you so in love with yourself tht your name makes you wet? you think its freaking sexy right? well anyway, i met up with some of the 6B'04 people at lot1 just now. its not even a gathering, less than 10 turned up? =.= so amethyst went 'lets take a pic!' and we complied. whtthenoob im the only one in white. and my fringe sucks. ugh can you pleasepleaseplease grow faster?! stupid fringe.

chen, cavin, bryan, ningyi, me, amethyst. (:

we ate at pastamania and saw pamela, madeleine and jocelyn. O.o looks like its a pretty popular hang-out. oh sengyau and ruiyang dropped by too but they left quite early, and apparently kenneth pangsed-ed. lawl. i wna play piano alr, shall update after the beijing olympics opening ceremony tnight. ta!~

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2008-08-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

tday is a random day! firstly, i slept through chinese and didnt get kp-ed. surprising eh? and desmond lim was telling yvonne and me about history club for next year. sounds like great fun! :D but i suspect he was talking about me when he mentioned the retard who didnt atq and link properly. :P my dar is sick again! poor dar your immune system is crashing! D: take more vitamins yeah? and take care of your husky voice! T.T me and tingg super worried about you okay, must get well soon. :D
im chatting with tons of people online and laaaaagging most of them. so paiseh. :P

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2008-08-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

look wht alastair gave my dar for her bday. =.= my dar was so traumatised tht she hid her face. thts her elbow lawl. :D

yupps thts right, thts his freaking name tag. eh deer/hamburger/cat/future sociopath can you be a liiiiiiiittle more normal? or have you never heard of such a word? and you aint ever gna be promoted to the 'dar' stage so dream big but its just gna be a dream. :D oh and i read your letter which was quite hilarious btw and i couldnt stop laughing for about 10seconds. (:

i think my stat counter has gone mad. AGAIN. how is it possible for it to increase by 50plus overnight. seriously. i dont have a stalker who sits before the comp and hits F5 every now and again wht. tsk. tday's maths test was a flop. but i managed to complete all 4questions! :D though i got the first and third questions wrooooooooong. T.T sadded. i love matrices and vectors, they totally saved my life! *runs around zihigh-ing*

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2008-08-05T21:58:00.001+08:00

I CREATED A TAAAAAAAGBOARD! on my own aint tht great? proves tht im not a comp noob.
&&my poor dar! her eyes are swollen and she missed sch for 2days alr! D: get well soon yeah? dont see you online, bet you're sleeping like a dead pig haha! but me and tingg miss you lots so come for sch tmr and die with us! cos of the maths quiz though i think im the only one thts gna die. tingg is a maths pro! :D
crap i hvnt finished mugging permutaaaaation&combinaaaation. shit tnight dont need to sleep alr. >:[

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2008-08-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

i love auguries of innocence by william blake! i seriously think its written extremely well. but who am i to speak, the fact tht its over a century old proves its merits alr. :D i have decided to post my favourite stanza from the poem. its up there! see! well anyway, I CUT MY HAIR. =.= and my long long fringe is gooooone. D: so sad. lynette thiong tht silly woman! never help me clarify with the auntie thn start cutting. the auntie thought i wanted the same hairstyle as thiong and now i look like a bimbo. :P but i like the back cos its not tht thick anymore. :D shall post pics soon. when im in the mood to take some. im so gna die tmr die alr die alr the maths quiz shall kill all my brain cells and i shall become a retard. okay tht was depressing. ): shant think about tht now. I SHALL MUG! :D

and omfgomfg im fking pissed cos the hci guy upstairs played the same song as me, albeit the pro-er and nicer version. like *&^%$?! PISSED. >:[

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2008-08-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

this has not been a fruitful weekend. shant talk about ytd, it sucked big-time cos i had tuition and it was ~~MATHS~~. >.< well went gran's hse for dinner ytd, ate like a pig going for slaughter soon. went the other gran's hse tday and ate like some starving beggar. blehhhhs im greedy and i shall die fat and flabby cos i dont exercise ever. ;P i think ray-ray is getting prettier. ahhhh im in love with her! hearts her! aiya nights you nocturnal creatures. im going to bed alr. :D

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2008-08-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

got home really late tday cos i met my parents at lot1 for dinner. my dad came back from china alr! :D but he didnt buy anything nice for me which sucks and i threw a tantrum like some 3yr old. ate pepper lunch express yay! so yummy look!~

we had the second session of our new cca tday. eh first aid club rocks okay, its like a mugging party with the smart people doing the work and the dumb people copying their work. :D im obviously the latter. but its not my fault i dont get wht desmond lim is saying half the time can! he digresses alot! plus he's scary! eg.
"have you done your work? you? GET OUT! you? GET OUT TOO!"

i have nightmares omg. T.T

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2008-07-31T22:48:00.000+08:00

im having a headache. my eyes hurt and so does my back. screw it im getting ooooooold! O.o i never actually thought about wht my life would be like as an adult. zzzomg my english is like ... but whtever i cant be bothered to correct it. and to the sadist who wonders how my scars look like, tada! :D back to piaing cid like (*&^%$#?! farewell.

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2008-07-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

i shall upload my favourite pics tday! from the e&c vivo trip to national comp to the hongkong trip.

madeleine, me, sherry, peishi, jasmine. xD

took this cos i was boreddddd at national comp. me&tingg's shoes. adidas and converse!~

nice view from the plane eh.

the chandelier at the hotel.

star of the post! transparent piano in the lobby! :D

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2008-07-31T00:02:00.005+08:00

ms chew's present! pretty right! <3

ms chew treated us to bon-bons! x)

oh crap blogger hanging on me. shall post the rest tmr. bye! (:

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2008-07-30T23:18:00.001+08:00

i have tons of pics from ms chew's farewell party and from national comp. oh and pics from my hongkong trip too. xD shall upload all my faves soon. oh i murdered my blog by deleting all my old posts. cant be bothered to look through them to check which are the ones i dont mind sharing with the whole wide worldddd!~ went to dar's hse to pia cid tday and i crapped two entire paragraphs like some genius. blahs lah. hate my mom, she keeps picking fights with me. like whtthefk, im not as fking retarded as her to waste time quarrelling. damn her. fk lah im hungry. went to see doctor after school cos i had blood in my ear. allergies again. in love with this song cos of sherry. please woman. wake up. leave him before he leaves you. AGAIN. sigh i shouldnt get involved in all this relationship crap. oh and i think jl is cuteeee~ haha. :D

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2008-07-28T20:24:00.002+08:00

i was so bored during lectures tht i used my pencil to scratch my wrist. now it looks like i cut myself again. oh i have a nick on my palm from when the penknife slipped. and my mom scalded me last night when she was making milo. smart eh. like mother like daughter. ;D we're so destructive haha! hansel chia is a retard can. stupid person who doesnt reply smses. kick you lah. well if you people wna see pics thn tada! they're from our vivo trip on wed.

ben&jerry's!

supposed to be me&sherry but ended up being me&half of sherry[:

our mandala!<3

random pic of BEARBEAR! on my lap

bye! (: